It is difficult...

...and that is an understatement.

It is an understatement to say that I can manage to survive.

It is nothing but short of a miracle that I am surviving.

It is difficult.

It is difficult to tell, to explain, to describe...

I am surviving but deep within is a volcano simmering in anger and frustration.

My heart aches. My heart bleeds.

I am angry.

It is difficult.